The Endless Battle Inside the Mind

As I write these words I wonder where you are now. I lay here and think, it should be you here next to me, it should be your arms wrapped around me. A year has passed since we have parted. "Its a shame it had to be this way, Its not enough to say I am sorry. Maybe I am to blame or maybe we're  the same, but either way I can't breathe. All I had to say is goodbye, we are better off this way" and never again shall I hear from you, never again shall I hear your voice. After a year "I am still alive but I am losing my drive, because everything we have been through and everything about you seemed to be a lie, a guiltless twisted lie. It made me learn to hate you, or hate myself for letting it pass by." Why did it have to be this way, why couldn't you have just left with me that day, then maybe these nightmares might finally go away, Why couldn't you have just trusted in us and forever know 

I Love You.

Born For You

It is easy to think about today as just another day, oh how easy it is for me to get caught up with myself, my life, my story. Life is brief and sometimes even shorter then expected. Life was never about me, my life won't last forever, it will eventually come to an end, and when it does what will I have accomplished? I am but an extra in this movie, I was born to tell you I Love you and now I am torn to do what I have to. I am tired, so homesick now for someone I never knew, for some place I've never been, a place where we won't be lonely, afraid, or hurt ever again. "I was born to tell you I Love you", and so let me point to you, let my life glorify you till I am brought back home. 

Pulled out of the Thorns

I sit still, very still, head in hands, face to the floor, deadened to you, cold to others. I have gone against you, I have hurt her, Why? Why have I separated myself from you, nothing I can do, nothing I can say will change this, helplessly I sit confused on what my next steps ought to be. Apart from you, apart from your direction I am nothing I am lost, I walk aimlessly, blindly. I slowly lift my head now thankful that you have pulled me out of these thorns. That you take away the pain, that you take away the guilt, that you have removed these thorns from my skin, the thorns, the lies, that want to destroy me. Now I get up and continue forward with my destiny.

A Mothers Day With The Father

I can't control it any longer my body wants to explode. I am back at the edge of the mountain over looking the endless landscape as the wind moves through me. You move through me. What now I ask? I am here, I am ready. Where shall I go, what will I do? In that instance the light peers through the branches that arch over me and answers, you are here, you are doing, you are with me. That was it all along, do you see now. You opened my eyes you captured my heart. There is nothing in this world as beautiful as you. You are the greatest Love that anyone could ever know. And with all I am, I am with you. 

Comfortable In Our Bondage

How can I describe what I can not always see. Drifting in and out of consciousness you visit me, your eyes creep open like a blooming flower, your lashes make up the long petals which I follow to their very end. In you I find comfort, a sense of hope. In you I rest comfortable in my bondage.

A Life Recaptured

As I turn my head I catch sight of you in the rearview mirror, she smiles and throws her arms around you. You both flirt back and forth, smiling, enjoying each other, oblivious to the world around you. A second glance revisited shows a deep discussion has set in. As you stare into her eyes she gazes back up to you, she leans in, the walls have fallen, she's letting you in she wants to be protected, she's asking you for something you aren't ready for now. As you put your arm around her shoulder tonight you agree to something you can't commit to, and therefore in the end a heart will be broken, little do you know it will be yours.  

Flower Whispers to the Son

I was but a small flower surrounded by the shadows of larger trees around me. I was left with tears running down my petals until I looked up to see you. You found me and casted down your light, drying my tears. You taught this small flower the meaning of Love and now I will look up to you the Son till the day I am no more.