The Passion Within comes Alive while on the Plane

I am here, I am alive, My heart beats loudly it beats clearly. I can't sit still any longer. The weight has been lifted off my chest, its time to act. There is a war going on, that war is called complacency. Come stand with me at the forefront of this battle. Sacrifice what is easy for what is good, for what is right.

Finally It's Over

I will mourn no more, my heart has overcome what it can not understand. It beats passionately and refuses to get hardened like the hearts surrounding it. "I've learned that what God desires to do in my life will require great sacrifice and surrender, focus; and always a relentless reliance on him." The revelation has come full circle now, I have let her go, I have finally let her go.

Coffee with Grandma

Im always greeted with a hug and a kiss on the check. As I take my seat conversation begins, her small dark eyes covered with years of life speak directly into my heart. As each page is turned I begin to understand. My grandma begins to transform into a young woman full of life, full of joy, full of uncertainty. After each picture, each page I gaze upon her eyes and see its true meaning unraveled. For only a moment, a brief moment I am able to escape my families struggles, hardships, and losses and see its core, through the beautiful heart of my loving Grandma.

Letting Go Cause Your Not Enough

There's nothing you can say there's nothing you can do, There's nothing in between, you know the truth. Nothing left to face, There's nothing left to lose, Nothing takes your place... When they say that your not that strong your not that weak, its not your fault, when you climb up your hill climb up your place I try and see your will... There's nothing left to prove, There's nothing I won't do, There's nothing like the pain I feel for you. There's nothing left to hide, There's nothing left to fear, I am always here. 

The Nightmare

I can see him in the distance a shadowy image with red blazing hair that reflects no color. As I walk closer he waits for me in the car. He stares at me as he digs through his pockets, his face looking all to familiar but at the same time unrecognizable. You hurt her, you hurt her so much, he tells me with his eyes. I know, I know, as I try and exclaim my many regrets, it is to late two sets of key chains have already been dropped in my hand. What does this mean? I cry out once again someone please tell me what does this mean! As sudden as it was started it is now over and I am left alone. I awaken, my heart throbs, a feeling that is all to uncommon. I seek understanding from this message for it will soon be lost if not recorded now. Such a thing is to important to be lost, I think as I lay my head back down for another night of restless sleep.

My First Heart Ache

Tracing the past outlines the stars in the sky where you and I laid looking aimlessly into the future. Our paths have crossed yet again, its been a long 7 years since this piece of my heart has had feeling. I try and apologize you try to say your sorry, please don't cry. Our bodies come together for a second then for a second more. I say bye you say never say good bye. 

Walking Down the Road of Disclosure

O Lord, do not rebuke me in your anger or discipline me in your wrath. Be merciful to me, Lord, for I am faint; O Lord heal me, for my bones are in agony. My soul is in anguish. How long, O Lord, how long? Turn O Lord and deliver me; save me because of your unfailing love. I am worn out from groaning; all night long I flood my bed with weeping and drench my couch with tears. My eyes grow weak with sorrow... But you keep me safe O God, for in you I take refuge. I said to the Lord you are my Lord; apart from you I have no good thing. I will praise the Lord, who counsels me, even at night my heart instructs me. Because he is at my right hand I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body will also rest secure, because you will not abandon me. You have made known to me the path of life, you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.

Reflection on the Past (the grieving process) A Silhouette of Songs

Rain on my heart rain, rain on my soul, rain on everything that I know. How could I be so blind that I could think that I could be in control, that I was different. The sadness has taken me into regret, how could I believe in some kind of feeling that could change everything I thought I knew. We both went down together, it felt like we might be there forever, just trying to get up. And I am sorry this wasn't easy when I asked you to believe me. But you let go. If grace knows my name then I am to blame for constantly spreading my fear and shame, I walk around blindfolded, talk, but Im not really listening. Rain on my heart, rain on my soul, rain on everything that I know.

Restless Sleep

I can't believe its not over yet. The battle I have struggled with for what seems like an eternity once more appears and bares down into me, lifting me away from sleep. I try and fight back, but my efforts only increase the pain inside. "I don't know much ,But I know about Love and how it hurts me to give up, It hurts me to give up."